
When I left the State of the University Address, I walked across campus and saw a friend of mine sitting under a tree. When I approached her to say hello and pay her a compliment, I saw that her emotional state was less than happy. She, too, is a musician.. a pianist and singer. When I offered a friendly ear, through tears she explained that she was scorned by her piano teacher for missing a note in a piece she had been practicing for a couple of weeks. She was questioning whether she wanted to continue with piano, or just focus on singing. She felt like she is not really doing what she wants with her life. After a few minutes of listening to her, I let her know that I knew exactly how she felt. After I had what could be called bad luck with opera auditions in Europe (that's another story, but suffice it to say my music-tied emotions were shattered for a while), I left classical singing all together and ended up traveling the world. Of course, I still felt a deep emotional connection to the world around me, and a need to create a shareable form of that connection, and thus began my photographic endeavors.
It is very difficult to be a good musician and not be in touch with your emotions. Most of your free time is spent practicing, questioning yourself, doubting yourself, practicing more, getting nervous, and then finally performing. Hopefully the performance goes well, which usually happens after enough practice, but even then you focus on the little mistakes you made. Then, people from the audience tell you how great you are... very rarely does anyone say, "Thank you", or, "I really enjoyed that", or any other personal statement. Personally, I don't like meet and greets after a performance for that very reason. My performance is not about me, it is for you. Sure, I place an emotional value on the music I'm performing, but I perform for myself. It is always up to me whether or not I want to share it with an audience (though normally I do, because I think the world benefits when people share what's in their souls).
Which brings me back to creation. We all place emotional value on things, but often times we're a bit too lazy to do anything about that. Now, granted, not everyone feels the need to create... not everyone has a "feeling" personality type. But if you're reading this blog, you're likely someone who is at least intrigued by artistic creation.
"Wait a minute Nathan, I thought this was a photography blog! What gives with all the music talk?" Well, when people ask what I do, I tell them I'm an artist... then they ask what kind, and I modestly reply, "In every way that I can be." I think in song, although I haven't quite honed my song-writing skills to the point where I want them. Since I think in song, I try to convey a sense of musical motion in my images. In this image I took at Cedar Springs, a farm I worked at in Sedro Wooley, WA, I can hear the raspberries and sunflower harmonize with the sunset in a soothing lullaby.
I think there are a lot of people out there like me, who think in song, and who feel connected to the world and sky. But I also think that a lot of those people have been conditioned to live their lives based on the expectations of others, thus not allowing their souls to fully be expressed.
I was recently interviewed by Fine Art Photography Weekly, which was a huge honor. The topic of conversation was "Do what you Love". I think that is the underlying message of this post: Create what you Love to Create. Here's the interview. Thanks for reading, and enjoy the show!
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